I don't know if small is the best adjective, but they are not giant, not insurmountable or overwhelming...
Just life sometimes keeps pecking. I suppose it all comes down to the glasses you wish too wear.
I went thru our companies insurance informational meeting...twice. It just did not make it thru this large melon of a head the first time. Or the second. Or any time in the past month that I read the new policy...
Don't worry. This is not about insurance or politics or Obamacare.
Really...
So a few weeks ago, my Wonderful Wife and I were discussing a physical test we were contemplating for one of our kids. Nothing serious, just an informative test. His primary Doctor said nothing was wrong, but you know how fifty year old( and nearly fifty year old ) helicopter parents can be..
Always wanting second opinions...
For the first time in my parenting life, I wondered if the second opinion was worth it.
Not because I didn't want to get it... Because I was worried about the money...
Last year it would not have been an issue, this year, it kind of is...
I've listened to A LOT of people complaining about coverage lately. It's happening everywhere. I wish I could legitimately blame someone, but in the end, as it always does, it comes back to simplicity. The "who" of the cause doesn't matter much, because it truly is a " what" statement...
What we are trying to do is replace Faith and Trust in Gods provision with a man-made, overly complex, poor substitute...
Don't get me wrong; I STRONGLY DESIRE great healthcare for my family. Having that would remove loads of worry that I choose to carry instead of sprinkles of Faith...
I have grown up in 21 century America, where we trust in panzi like institutions to make us feel secure...
Unfortunately, that is an illusion. It is an amazingly convincing illusion, granted, but it has no real power or authority above God...
Blue Cross, to their chagrin, does not keep us healthy. They like to give that impression, but Health is graced by God, not distributed by Aflec.
So once again, it becomes a question of where to place our Faith...
My brain somehow thinks that great insurance and God as a back-up/ trump card is the most preferable...
As most of you know, I have a very silly and easily distracted eight pound mass inside my thick, polish skull..
And this is the place where true Faith really begins...
I can't tell you where it ends because I'm still struggling with the first hurdle..
I want the kind of Faith that exists without worry of pain or loss.
I want to KNOW beyond a shadow of a doubt, that we can somehow be protected from physical, emotional and financial losses.
But that was never promised by God... I wish it was...
No power on earth can give us that. Satan will promise it, daily, even hourly...
But he can never deliver it. Illusions and allusions, but never true security.
So I find myself admitting and confessing that the show is more attractive than the real deal, sometimes. Sometimes I want to be conveniently deceived , if it means feeling worldly secure...
But Christians are blessed with a simple yet terrifying choice that eventually define them; Faith or fear...
Two pairs of glasses on the bedroom table. One that sees into a focused eternity, undistracted, almost oblivious to worldly concerns. Another with wide lensed vision, that collects every possible worry in a 360 degree spectrum.
It shouldnt be so difficult, this accesorizing decision...
So I Pray.
I pray for knowledge of Gods Will for me, the power to carry it out and the willingness to go along with it...
Willingness... That ones the kicker...
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