Obedience..

                My Pastor said in a recent sermon that that Adam disobeyed God within pages of being created, in the First Book of the Bible. Don't eat of the Tree of Knowledge, all else is yours...

      Adam did it anyway. He blamed Eve, he blamed the serpent. He sinned in complete defiance of Gods single command.

                  I understand Adam. As a Christian man I feel that I should claim I have no idea how he could do this ( at least that is how I think I should feel towards Adam).

        The sad fact is that I do understand. 

              I am a sinner who God has in His Grace, allowed to be broken enough to surrender and repent from a life of sin. But I am still a sinner...

                    This life can be so difficult. It seems for every two steps forward the Lord brings me, I choose to step back one and a half. I am nothing like the man I was and the sins I commit these days seem so much more trivial, but all sins are equeal in Gods vision.

            I want to call this a fixed game, but it is neither.

           Jesus died for me. They may have been shooting craps at his feet when he was on the Cross as a substitution for me, but what He did for humanity was as real as can be in this life and the next.

   It was not a game.

        Until He came and died for our sins, there was no real choice. No one could follow the Law completely and earn Salvation. Jesus was prophesied then but not yet born in that manger or nailed upon that cross. The " Game " then was fixed.

          Jesus " unfixed" it. He won it for us by His sacrifice, being the only one capable of making it.

Then he invited us all on his team, after He had won the endgame.

       It's not a game, I know, but I'm being allegorical ...

                My point is that I find sin now that did not seem to be sin to me years ago. It may not be as much sin of commission today as as sins of omission. It may not be actions but thoughts. It may be sins of the eye and sins of the heart in place of physical transgressions...

            So I still sin and still need to repent and ask for forgiveness.

                    Jesus knew this about you and me and every single person he died for and did it anyway.

    He saved us for the wretches we were but also for the sinners we would still be. He knows our souls and hearts and every hair on our head and every evil and impure thought we would ever have..

    And died for us anyway...

          I understand Adam. He did not have the Holy Spirit but he saw God and walked and talked with him in the garden.

     I plan to speak with him in Heaven. I'm not exactly sure what I will say. I hope it is something like " I love you brother. I understand. No hard feelings".