The concept was decent. I had planned to bring it all together by saying that this will actually happen, eventually. We all will stand before God with our covers pulled. We all will see each other exactly as we are/ were, with no emotional or societal cosmetics added on.
Finally, we would have the chance to know each other completely and have no show left. Our brokenness and vulnerability would bring us all together as loving brothers and sisters, exposed by God...
Then I read that Robin Williams died. I assured myself it was an Internet hoax and tried to return to my original post... But the story kept repeating. It was true. Robin Williams had apparently committed suicide.
I stopped writing and re read what was written and I realized that it did not say what I wanted it to say. It only said what I HAD wanted it to say...
I thought about that place.I pictured Heaven in my little mind. Equality and union before God, no hiding. No need to crouch behind humor or antics. No posturing or pretending in an attempt to be loved or accepted. With our ransom paid, we would be transformed ...
I realized, sadly, that was what we needed, right now...
A place for all of the broken and frightened and camouflaged. Today.
A safety, like in hide and go seek, where the roles and worries of mom or dad, drunk or academic, rich man or thief, disappears for the moment, and we stand in front of each other now, as we will stand in front of one another then...
A place where we have a chance to see the tragedy coming.
A place where we we have an ability to do something about it.
A place where no one need die by their own hand, alone...
Most all of the people I know have been affected by this thing called suicide, many deeply and personally.
I did not know Robin Williams, but I knew many like him. I have stood where he stood and felt what he felt. Probably many more of us have had that experience than care to admit...
No defense for the act, just sadness and compassion..
So , I realize today there is that place.
And it is here, today..
It is Christ.
It always was, always is and always will be...
We may never see the tragedies coming, but Jesus does...
We may never have the opportunity or ability to do something, but every moment of every day, Jesus does...
And the sad fact is, no one need to die at their own hand...
Jesus was there with his arms wide open when Robin Williams died, just as he has been with all the others that chose that road. He was willing to pull him out then, just as he pulled me..
And that is the saddest part, the true tragedy...
That free will can overpower spiritual need, if all we are willing to focus on is the pain and isolation. All it takes is a glimpse away from the garbage and a millisecond view of the true release that Christ brings....
I don't know why some never look away.
No clue why some do..
In the end, in the real end, I believe we will all have that question answered.
Not today, though. Today, the best we can hope for is comfort.
I pray for all the families and friends touched by this.
I'm grateful for the ones who looked away from there pain long enough to see the true answer...
...and accepted Gods Grace...
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