I know that Rocky 4 was probably a better movie. Dolph Lungren killed Apollo Creed in the ring and Sylvester Stallone made that great speech in the end...
It's kind of hard to top that.
But hands down, the best scene of all scenes, is the moment in Rocky V, after Tommy Gunn hit Pauly in the bar, and Rocky tells Tommy " My rings outside"...
And Rocky is back in his truest element, not the ring, but a back alley...
I wrote a different blog last night. I spent a few hours on it, then I read it thru a few times and realized that I liked what it said, but also recognized that it was a cover.
God has been working in my heart in this last year a lot, and I don't want to talk about that...
I would rather be non specific and stick to safer and less personal topics.
I am trying to register for Bible College...
That has to be the hardest sentence I have ever typed on this old and antiquated iPad..
I am much more comfortable in " the alley"...
There are people in this world who have an unquenchable thirst for the Word of God and have hearts of service and love that I cannot comprehend.
My experiences of God are from the street.
Being delivered from addiction and suicide. Seeing some of darkest people being brought forward, into the light, thru Jesus Christ...
Walking with those delivered after a brother or sister has fallen back into darkness...
Allowing God access to my soul when I question and am angry and dont understand...
Sitting in our living room recliner, mentally inventorying all these blessings He has Graced this family I belong too, with...
I have no scholastic experience and truthfully, i don't want any. That sounds horrible, I know, but it is the plain and unvarnished truth...
I love listening to Charles Stanley and all of the Pastors and Elders from our Church.
I concentrate intently on all they share and dissect it and compare it to all I've learned on this journey, so far...
But I struggle in studying the Bible.
I truly am the last person on this earth that should attend Bible College, in my own, personal opinion...
In one of our Churches men's study groups a few years ago, we took an insane personality survey with over 700 questions, to help identify the gifts that God has given us, so we could prepare to use them, as He intended...
I was in the same group as our founding Pastor and he and I swapped our results pages.
We were polar opposites...
I am not a people person. Philosophically, I like "people", but in practice find myself uncomfortable and reasonably inept, around them...
The Word does not become " alive" for me, as I read it...
But in a setting where I am listening to It and hearing all the implications that it confers, I am fascinated... Drawn in... And It lives...
For many years, decades even, I have felt this nudge.
Kind of like an unrelenting whiffle ball to the ear, nudge... in my soul...
I am to old. I do not have the temperament. I do not have the personal inclination... I do not have the time or the finances. I do not have a heart for service... I do not want to leave my cherished chair, in the back. I do not want to leave my comfort zone..
And true growth only begins AFTER we LEAVE the comfort zone...
Not one iota of this whole crazy idea contains anything I want and think is reasonable...
But the nudge has become a push...
I have absolutely no idea why I am being led- have been led for a long time, and now am being pushed, into something I can find no earthly reason for...
I keep telling Him, He got the wrong guy...
He got the wrong guy...
But I am tired.
The second best scene in Rocky V was when Rocky got knocked down hard and didn't want to get up... Eventually, he begins to rise, saying" I didn't hear no bell"...
I am tired.
Tired of stating logic that God ignores...
Tired enough that in this battle, at least, I think I finally hear the bell..
Didn't Moses have a go at convincing God that he wasn't the right man for the job? Look how he turned out.
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